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8月6日

enviroments/mindset

i've been moving places recently, from the modernest one, USA, to Singapore to China. and finally my parents home Xuzhou. Not sure exactly where I should consider the dearest place or the place i belong. to name the place that i feel at ease the most, it would be at school, except that the school life is a little bit rountine to draw my interest.

i feel myself changing my behavior when the place is changing, which is very weird. sometimes you think yourself is self consistent, like you compare two jackets in different places and you would say the same thing throughout, but it's really not the case. i would choose different ones when in an outlet shop in CA or a department store in Xuzhou. when i came to meet my elimentary school friends i thought i would greet them with the grown-up rules, like shaking hands or giving a hug, but what i did was all like old time, do whatever intimate moves to guys and act like a stranger to girls (which is the boys-girls rule in the old time). when we go karaoke guys would sit on one side and girls on the other, all like old times. the most surprising thing is that i didnt find china dirty or the enviroment is unbearable at all when i come back, which would be the case if i visit some foreign developing county. you cant evaluate it according to some rules or rankings because it's your home; it's fixed in your memory and it'll stick in there forever. i do make effort to evaluate places that i go to visit but i will not when back to china; i will not to any places that i've stayed for long.